~The Guarded Victim~

Don't just stand there,
looking around with blank eyes and empty pockets.
How dare you judge me,
when you, yourself, lack any common morality.
Sharp words fly off your tongue,
aiming for my most delicate spots.
How dare you insult my intelligence with your mispronounced words.
Your selfishness disgusts me
as you carelessly degrade all those around you.
I feel no pity for your guarded, victim act;
I've seen that play before.
So fire away if you must, lash out and cut me; some blood may show.
I hope it was all worth it in the end,
when you find yourself sad and alone.

July '10

~If I Were A Bird~

If I were a bird,
I would fly....
I would fly!
With the air massaging my wings,
The sun kissing my face.
Free...
Freed from my cage,
I am changing direction.
I will fly...
Until I arrive in a new world.
Until I find a peaceful life.
I will continue to fly...

~Again~

Another free fall...My heart is broken...Again...

I ask you why...You refuse to explain...Again...

I'll always love you...But for now I hate you...Again...

~Punch-Drunk Jazz~

Fingers dancing over ivory keys;
Lips moistening the mouth of the brass saxophone;
Palms softly stroking the smooth skin of the drum;
A song so enticing plays at the spirit.
So finely tuned and perfectly crafted,
Melodies transform the atmosphere.
Harmonious with the beating heart,
Darkened rooms fill of smoke and martinis.
This easy listening is soothing to the soul.
Heavy eyelids accompany the nodding head
As all five senses are centered.
Focused on the reverberation of the chords
Emotions transcend into an artistic sense of peace
Passionately flowing towards poetic drunkenness.

November 08

~El Mar~

El mar, ¡qué pasión entre las olas!
Las olas vienen y van, siempre con el mismo ritmo.
Un ritmo adictivo e intenso.
Mar…..hace muchos años que te conocí.
Recuerdo muy bien aquel día…
Tu cara de tranquilidad, tus brazos fuertes, tu boca tocable.
¡Ay, como quería yo entrar en tu boca!
Tu boca llena de sensibilidad….de calor.
Tu idioma casi familiar….me motivaba a querer aprenderlo,
A conocer más de mi misma, más de ti, más del mundo.
¡Qué poder! No sabes el poder que tenías en mí;
Que todavía tienes en mí…
Y no me importa…
Me encanta estar entre tus olas.
Provocas en mí el querer meterme en tus aguas.
A un lugar más profundo que antes…..
A un lugar mucho más íntimo… hasta llegar a tu alma.
¿Qué puedo hacer? ¿Qué quiero hacer?
¡Eso! No quiero hacer nada más que sumergirme en ti;
El mar, mi lugar de paz, mi lugar de tranquilidad, mi lugar de amor.


Abril ‘08

~Hopeless Romantic~

A quiet look stolen
As the night danced on.
Stars sparkled as the tale unfolded.
Hopeless romantic.

The show must go on
As predetermined steps flowed flawlessly.
Cinderella and her prince;
Onlookers believed.

Her piercing crystal eyes
Spoke so passionately of him.
Embracing in beat;
Music taunted the innocence.

The high moon illuminated
What was intended to hide.
Consciously captivated.
Brief moments of bliss.

April 08

~Shades of Chocolate~

Flaming flowers, swirling clouds.
Your soul of white chocolate
Danced through the hours;
With the altering music you changed your pace
Staying with the beat as trivial rain fell.
A quiet storm rolled in, taking control,
The room slowly emptied of familiarity;
You were left alone, soaked to the core.
Held captive by confused emotions
As your strengths and weaknesses battled;
Flaming flowers, swirling clouds.
Your eyes of milk chocolate
Full of pain, full of love; you ached for peace.
Suffering for a taste of sanity,
You tried so hard to set yourself free.
No one would listen…to your frantic cries.
Perhaps they couldn’t hear you.
Finally liberated on your own accord;
Hands as broken as the chains that bound them.
Oh, they’ll have to hear you now.
Flaming flowers, swirling clouds.
Your heart of dark chocolate.

October 08

~Seek and Find~

Where are you?
Futile attempts, yet I keep looking.
Every stone upturned.

Is it really worth it?
I try to rationalize;
Simply trying to get what’s mine.

How many more walls?
My feet are weary.
Perhaps this is the last to climb.

November 08

~Roller Coaster~

A roller coaster relationship
Takes us up the highest peaks
Then drops us…arms up…freefalling.
It’s a dangerous repetition
Yet we keep riding.
Fighting against the strong winds;
Secured behind the bars of love,
Are they strong enough to hold us?
For another taste of the excitement,
It’s a risk worth taking.
Faithful in the notion of us.


9 March 2009

~Tinto~

The dark tart flavor envelops my tongue
Each time the cool crystal touches my lips.
It causes a burning sensation
That lingers tauntingly in my mouth.

So smoothly it glides down my waiting throat,
Warming my body inch by inch.
A simple pleasure that comes in shades crimson;
A color as deep as the taste it leaves behind.

February 4, 2009

~Contradiction~

You’re vicious and cold
With those warm, embracing arms.
You hastily tear me apart
With your gentle touch and charms.
I find myself running to you
While trying desperately to get away.
I hate the way that I love you;
Despite it all, I stay.
I hate you so much
For the love that you give.
You say that you love me,
Yet you incessantly deepen the rift.
Into her bed
You run and you hide.
Back to me you keep coming
As I am here to abide.
I keep letting you in
While wanting to push you away.
I keep telling you to go,
Yet letting you stay.
My emotions keep intertwining
And tangling about.
Each time I’m more confused
And I silently shout.
So angrily happy
While I am with you
Then so peacefully uneased
When I finally tell you we’re through.

Oct/Nov/Dec 2006

~Fuck You~

Fuck you, you continuously hurt me
Without any observation to the fact.
Fuck you, you continuously lied to me
Without any consideration of my heart.
You took this tender soul
And made it cold and bitter.
You took this trusting heart
And slowly chiseled it to a pulp.
All I wanted was to take care of you;
Nurture you; be your shoulder.
All you wanted was a secret
To use when needed, then move on.
Fuck you and your comforting words;
Your soft deceiving eyes that caught me.
Fuck you and your lack of heart,
Your disrespect and dishonesty.
I have to admit you had me trapped,
A fool, time and time again.
Fuck you! No…. you fooled me once…
The shame is on me, I fucked myself instead.

0ct/Nov/Dec 2006

~New Orleans~

Tragedy strikes
In so many forms of destruction.
Lives are forever altered
Without any call to attention.
Pain and fear
Mask the faces of the affected.
Forlorn and solemn
The surviving slowly treads
Along undesirable paths
That were once calm.
Bittersweet recollections
Of loves lost, retreat.
To the broken hearts
Memories are left to be passed on.
Slowly, lives are rebuilt…
One by painful one.
Resolve and hope
Keep faith up and rising.
Though never forgotten,
Decreased is the unbearable sting.

January 2005

~Poetic Orgasm~

Naked emotions stripped of hesitations slowly start to resist all reservations;
Gently caressing the creative nerves
Searching for the muse that starts my blood boiling.
Anxiety is building as I seek out the perfect words…..
…..the rhythm starts to flow…
Heated anxiousness and hectic perseverance
Complete concentration blocking outside distractions
Heartbeat is increasing.. palpating.. racing to keep the creative momentum
Don’t lose it….
Don’t lose it…
My feverish scribbles start to climax as the last strokes are placed on the page.
Ears ringing and body taunt!
Almost there!
Don’t stop!
Don’t stop!
Don’t st…aah!
A quick gasp for air, followed by an exhausted sigh,
I fall back weightlessly as my eyes start to clear.
Body relaxing slowly while reveling in its accomplishment.
A final quiver as the signature is placed, claiming the work;
Overwhelmed by the powerful touch of the written word.

May/June 2007

~Realization of Defeat~

Feelings not yet depleted
Though you are pushing me farther.
Words unsaid gnaw at me;
Each night gets a little harder.

Closed is your heart;
You brush past me and smile.
Inside, I yearn for a sense of comfort
Yet I feel as though put on trial.

Interrogated by my conscience,
I fight for the freedom to confess.
A battle persists in my heart;
My all is tested, no less.

Realization of defeat,
An understanding of my loss.
I’m heartbroken to my core
And overwhelmed with helplessness.

February 2005

~Unresolved Conflicts~

Unresolved conflicts
Continue to battle in my mind.
Feelings further confuse things
As I grow undeniably tired.
Tired of the fear of the unknown;
Tired of the potential pain;
Attempted solutions
Fail again and again.
Prayers for an answer,
For a sense of inner peace,
Reverberate from my lips;
I seek to feel at ease.
Unintentionally I refuse
To believe it can’t be so.
Although I wish to initiate,
I respectfully don’t.

January 2005

~Unspoken Trust~

Intrigued by conversation,
I find myself opening.
Question after burning question,
I find myself exposed.
Fascinated by the passion
In your voice; you speak.
Surprised at myself
For harboring no fears.
Unspoken trust
Envelops me as I speak of my dreams.
I find again my voice;
My reason for being.
I thought it was lost
But I find it was simply misplaced.
My passions, my fears, my heart;
I allow my book to be read

October 2004

~Alone~

The wind is so refreshing
As it flows gently past me
My days go by, one by one
Nothing really changes
Happily, I dance
Swaying to silent music
A shadow falls over me
A chill crawls up my spine
I feel detached
I feel like I am flying
Yet I’m being jerked around
My silent cries go unheard
As I scream deep inside my heart
Then I feel the pain
I catch my breath and can’t breathe
It hurts but I do nothing
The fault is mine
I twist and turn as I fall
It doesn’t physically hurt anymore
While I lay there lacking emotion (or motion)
Praying to be someone else, somewhere else
I fall asleep dreaming of dark clouds
Then all is black
No more happy, carefree days
Forever, I am alone

2000/2001

~Another Goodbye~

Bright diamonds studded the dark heavens
As a cool breeze gave a slight chill.
Enveloped in the strong embrace
That I trust in still.
My voice choked as I held on tight
To the love that must once again leave
On this fateful night.
The dark, loyal eyes
That I gazed deep within
Became glazed as he promised,
This test, we would conquer and win.
Dreams of future days
That would soon come.
If I wait patiently,
The love will succumb.
After one last taste of that soft, sweet kiss,
My heart cries out and endures the pain of this worthwhile bliss.

2002

~White Sands~

The white sands
Glitter like silver flakes
One look at the sunset
Is all it takes
I feel the warm water
Lapping at my feet
I listen to the crashing waves
And their steady beat
The water, it invites me
To take a dip
So in, I dive
It’s a trip
The warm salt water
Feels good on my skin
It burns, yet tingles
The cuts deep within.

2004